There's nothing like family when you need a helping hand, right? Someone there to catch you when you fall flat on your "you know where" and with 3 kids to boot. Needless to say we've been put in a position to where we needed a little help and our family reached out to us because otherwise we'd be completely homeless right now.
I ultimately had reservations when my husband approached me with the idea of moving in with his father. Not only was I concerned with bullets ricocheting off the metal fence shattering windows and maybe even penetrating one of us in the process due to the type of neighborhood he resides in. But there's a certain type of vocabulary, words of expression my kids will be subjected to that I'm having the darndest time figuring out how to deal with let along set them down and educating them as to why this is.
Namely the n-word. This word is used so much, which I've tried to explain that it's just something that he's grown up with and has coined himself as such, as well as their uncle who makes it very known that he's a dope dealer/gangsta and basically s*** happens. The uncle was over to the house visiting for the afternoon yesterday which turned into a late night/early morning get-together because they didn't decide to leave until well after 2AM. My son told me he referred to him as a n***** and I'm sure he was shocked to say the least.
What do I tell them? My kids? Do I have any say, being that I'm in this house, for who knows how long? I will admit I'm scared of the uncle and with good reason. The father-in-law as well because they're both a little crazy. They do have they're good moments and ultimately loves the kids I'm sure, but...
Since we've been here, I've been comfortable, trying to adapt and come out of my shell and try and relax. A few days ago, however, I think the kids and I (the older two) had a revelation when we heard 5 gun-shots right outside the window...it could have been a few blocks away, but nonetheless, we did hear them. I'm trying to be optimistic here. My husband tells me that you can get shot in any neighborhood, which is completely true, but...
Signed - Not A Miss Goody Two-shoes, Just a Concerned Mother of 3!