Hurt Sad and Alone

[TK]

I'm 5 months pregnant with a baby boy. I live in the Maryland area, I'm 31 years old and this is my first child. I'm not married to the father of my child but we live together. He is so unsupportive. We both had been having problems before, but the last 5 weeks have been great. For Mother's Day he spoiled me, we had a nice long weekend in Atlantic City in a beautiful suite. On this past Thursday I want to show him I love him and I appreciate him. I decided to go to Whole Foods and buy Nectars, Apples & Peaches to make him a nice desert. He works 2 pm - 10pm and gets home around 11:15pm. I ran a nice warm bubble bath for the 2 of us, baked the fruit with pecans on top and whip crème. I lit about 4 candles, showered curled my hair and put on a cute little teddy. Prior to all this I called him at 7pm to let him know I have something special for him when he arrived home. I woke up at 1:45am he still wasn't home. I called him and there were a lot of men screaming in the background. He said he was playing poker. And he is sorry and he will leave now. Of course the water is cold so I ran new water for him. I fell asleep again when I woke up he was coming in at 5:47 am. I was so hurt, so mad and this is not the first time he has done this to me. But this is the 4th time. Later in the day he went on to say he's not happy with me I make him mad and I'm lazy I have no ambition. Granted I had a job that paid me 60k I lost that job. And Now I work someone else (bank) I only make 28k. He's so mean to me. I feel so alone and sad. Now Friday he's being mean stayed out playing poker until 3am then Saturday he stayed out playing poker until 9pm then when he finally came home he played poker on his computer. I worked up this morning having pains in my arms legs and feet. I broke down I hurt so bad and my heart hurt also. I went into the guest bathroom and had a mental breakdown. I cried so hard for so long I couldn't stop myself. I tried I did but I could not stop crying. He heard me screaming and crying not once did he come to check on me. Now its 1:39am on Monday morning and his friends have been in our house since 3pm Sunday and its 1:39 the next day playing poker. I have no family here and I do not have money to get a hotel. My heartache so bad. He's so mean to me. I have 2 Pomeranians (dogs) my tow dogs had a puppy last year. I could have sold the dog but he fell in love with the dog so I said this is your B-day gift. Later the dog was nerve wrecking I could not train him. I had an older lady that lost he husband that wanted the dog. He said no I want the dog. Then 2 months later he said lets give the dog away I found another older lady that wanted the dog he said noooooo I want him I will try to train him. Now I'm pregnant tired a lot I do not walk the dogs I let them in the back yard to crap. He yelled at me and said you need to walk them dogs it smells like shit back there. I said well could you help me pick it up. He said no those are your dogs. I told him I have 2 dogs and my 2 are trained I can take them to the doggy park but yours is a hassle to put on a leash. He just looked at me and said nothing. He complains Thursday about the kitchen floors I got on my hands and knees and mops the floor by hand scrubbing. I'm so tired you guys have no idea. I'm so tired and I'm really alone. I can't stop crying.

[Lea]

Also I will advise not telling him. Allow him to be dumb founded don't give him the chance to convince you otherwise. Most of the time these Men do not grow up.